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Maté Jarai
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One last smooch from my favourite lover before I head back to the rain but it’s fine I’ll just hibernate […]
Yesterday I believed ‘inherent’ was a foundation, one made of something tauter than all the bridges on this river. . […]
I looked out at Brighton from the back window of my neighbour’s fourth floor flat. There was fog. The sky […]
The sea is green and the sky is grey. The inbetween is white and then there is no inbetween. The […]
Every 5AMmakes me feelmore alive thanI’ve ever been.Right now I senseevery atom of my beingshake and tremble,grin and cryall at […]
I want to feel likethere might be morethan this again. I want to feelstory-like again. I feel a compulsion, a […]
Home is a feelingthat you can find anywherecircling around you. Home is a feelingwhen your past re-emergeswithout a warning. Sometimes […]
1937 andalso now,we don’t knowwhat the fuckis going onand it usedto be finewhen wedidn’t pretend,only nowlike kids ina forestwe be […]
November’s firemight look likeend of daysapocalyptic / apocalyptojudgement day and allthose horsesor whatever your faithor faithlessnessbut it’s all ours –judge […]
Light and liquidfrom underground whalesand underwater volcanoeswithout the heat andthere’s no fluidity as faras I can tell, just revelationand alterationfrom […]
All the poor souls suffering from depression getting pumped full of mind numbing, emotion killing, lab made chemical bullshit, when […]
Tell me to listen and tell meI’m spiralling. Notice thedull lines in my eyesand the smile that shapeshiftedfrom something else […]
Rewind the days and lookout again at what you sawbefore, a premonition tothe freeze, and the summerbefore last when time […]
Up here I’m excess,without the right tools to scribe something worthyof their attention.This place is no secret, it’s well-known, just notin the world of you and […]
I have come to realisethat even the selfis a circle, really, goingaround and holding handslike we used to onceupon a […]
Somewhere like thisis where it all began.I was the boywho trudged alongthrough the mud,sun stripes leading meto screams andworthy dreamsso […]
The pier reminds me of a time when my little brother and I played chicken with the waves and lost, […]
There are too manyseagulls in this town.We need more falcons and hawksor something biggerlike a pterodactyl.There are alsotoo many people […]
Called it rebirth but you didn’t die, or maybe you did and I just missed it. My eyes were closed, […]
I ate a mushroom and waited for things to get going and they certainly did. First the road we were […]
I woke up today more tired than usual, drank coffee and ate oreos and went outside and there was some […]
So this is what the end looks like, an ancient mattress on the floor, a yellowed towel, sweaty sheets, floorboards […]
One year is subjective blue bird flaming mythics got me questioning why don’t they read me read me listen at […]
I’ve ached for months cried internal sought others contemplated death witnessed breaking points ignored them burned them bright gave up […]
This is my thirty-year-old Hungarian face I’m melancholic and often numb Or if not I’m angry and disatisfied Fairly lazy […]
While sitting up in bed on Saturday morning with a headache thinking about the long hours of work that lay […]
Found half of a bone jaw found the other half nearby put them face to face in the dirt ‘Dinosaur […]
Drifters and beggars money makers streets too ancient to be named fought over thousands of years thousands of times all […]
Listening to John Frusciante really had to focus in order to spell his name correctly as he’s not recognised by […]
My fingers have been tapping insistently for ten years, maybe. I’m alert, noticing they’ve stopped. The wooden table surface is […]
The boy was neither young nor old. He had a mind and understanding far beyond his years, but his appetite […]
I can hear the ocean just my cupped hand over my ear there’s no wind just pressure distant love calling […]
I’m irritable you’re irritating I’m hooked on being irritated. Our lines fuzz distort each other merge momentarily from time to […]
The films he watches define him and have been for years he realises one night while questioning himself in relation […]
You’re complicated I was ankle deep fell flat out but the water here is soft didn’t sting my eyes beneath […]
She’s staring into space, it must be black, he thinks, black and full of swirly things, her questions. He wants […]
Wave riding hope I didn’t break you feels like it maybe I’m outrageous but I feel vacuous tonight like all […]
He knows it’s raining even before he hears it a feeling inside out nerves and bone touching cold sheets all […]
The old 1998 internet dial tone plays on the Incubus track I’m listening to and I realise Incubus probably feel […]
Flat out on the riverside by choice I’m sweating out the purge of the poison hoping for a cleansing I […]
Bouncing on the river side lungs heaving but no asthma just general inability to cope because usually I lie in […]
The instrumental piano music I’m listening to makes me want to kill myself. It’s 5AM and it’s dark and the […]
I can hear your wail, can you hear mine? It’s distant and patient and you are my distance patiently waiting, […]
The boy trudged through the dark forest. He kept his brows low and focused, because though he was afraid, […]
It starts softly but no less resonant than the noise, the rush that surrounds the storm of last night, and […]
‘Man, the wood feels and smells so good and especially the lemon oil, and I love how my fingers feel […]
She wanted a clean slate so she let herself get dirty. Sunlight hid her pale face and dark intensions, gave […]
Cold and I’m walking towards infinity or what feels like infinity even though I am aware it is not. It […]
He thinks about what Robert De Niro and Jimi Hendrix have in common. ‘They are both cool,’ he says. What […]
Light is his game and colour is his object, abjection and absolution. Falsely it hangs whilst on other days he […]
The girl within you has no eyes only slits filled with shadow. And as silence falls I listen, wonder whether […]
In utero and flying around away from all the sweat and heaving air of all these people, this life. Shambala […]
The wind tunnels through the room heavy and hot. Thoughts hazing my head, more powerful than exhaustion. No force to […]
They will glide around the world and eventually all die, it’s only a matter of the eagles and what I […]
I decided to attempt to write about some space related things when I read about this ‘cannonball star’ a few […]
Rain patters on the sheet iron and flows along the rusty grooves, falls in a spray onto the concrete below. […]
Fresh like my attitude and provincial like my sense of reality, togetherness. Trees staring, prying fingers aimed and scratchy, lingering […]
I Whale sharks are the biggest fish on earth, and arguably, the prettiest sharks on earth (check out my shark-beauty-rankings […]
The boy woke in the night and stared at the curtains. They were blowing in the breeze and he imagined […]
In my eyes, octopuses (or Octopi) have always seemed like one of the most bizarre creatures on this earth. There’s […]
There are over around 440 known species of shark. The full list is coming soon, but for now, here are […]
Below are some colourful things with whimsical names that I made and enjoyed making and looking at, so I hope […]
I was eight years old when a kind of magic entered my life: call him greatness personified, wizardry, focus, deadly […]
The moon’s shining spots were clearly visible through wisps of spidery cloud causing it to look like it was bubbling […]
Armande could only eat berries. He preferred them to insects in taste, hated the way legs got stuck in his […]
They stood serene in the light. They stood in a line, the three of them, the last three animals in […]
They told me to head to the mountains. That is where the truth lies. Beyond snow leopards, and icicle […]
The moon fizzed in the sky its shining spots clear through spidery cloud. Hand in hand we walked, fingers intertwined, […]
Crystal clear it is, this feeling within, he says. There is a bounce to his step a glimmer in his […]
Sometimes I draw / scribble / sketch in a notebook when I can’t think of what to write but still […]
Everything feels a little sticky and dry and I scratch my entire body. She tells me to stop, even grabs […]
I sit there leaning back on the chair, spliff in hand, toking joyously. I watch the rabbit hop about in […]
It transends always distorted by distance and time. That is why it comes in many forms and only the wise […]
You know it’s going to be a good day When a stranger hands you a free coffee and bacon sandwich. […]
Blurry red eyes weep for sunlight and warmth and this sickness burns brightest in the dark. This is a what […]
Sullen trees still stand for something. Low craggy branches have seen things, Held this and that, Watched faces Furry, bald […]
My brothers are made of stone. Fire does not harm them; it twinkles quietly when they are near. Flames lap […]
Welcome to the world of Wendle… We don’t abide to the usual laws of nature, physics… or in fact any […]